‘Golden Bachelor’ Gerry Turner Had Suicidal Ideas After Theresa Nist Divorce

Gerry Turner is opening up concerning the brutal public backlash after his cut up with Theresa Nist … admitting the ‘Golden Bachelor’ heartbreak hit him so arduous, he spiraled into suicidal ideas.

TMZ has obtained an besides of Gerry’s upcoming memoir, “Golden Years” … and he writes that after saying his divorce simply 3 months in final yr, the unfavorable response acquired so brutal he hit all-time low … writing, “One night time, whereas I used to be mendacity in mattress and staring on the ceiling, all of it turned an excessive amount of, and for the briefest second, I thought of placing a gun to my head.”

Within the excerpt, Gerry explains he’s at all times had a “marathon mentality” — pushing by way of ache realizing it will go. However he admitted that on the time, the agony felt countless.

Gerry says the darkish ideas vanished simply as rapidly … as a result of he instantly pictured his daughters, Jenny and Angie, and knew he may by no means put them by way of that. He clarifies the second wasn’t about eager to die … however extra about wishing he may simply disappear.

And that’s precisely what he says he craved as quickly as the general public scrutiny began piling on … writing, “I dreamed of renting a room in some distant a part of Alaska nobody had ever heard of and never popping out for a month” — a shock for him, since “he had by no means been the depressed sort.”

Gerry additionally will get candid concerning the behind-the-scenes fallout with Theresa … saying that they had a pact to defend one another from bogus headlines, however he says she broke the deal by placing out her personal assertion simply days later.

Nonetheless, he’s promising the total trip — from actuality TV fame to heartbreak, and the teachings he’s pulled from all of it — in his memoir “Golden Years,” hitting cabinets Nov. 4.